Prison

I do have nothing to say, all the words are in the air. They are flying and changing. Whether to try to catch them and force them on this black and white prison or to leave them just alone? I feel at the moment like making the feelings the experience into a formed shape, is wrong. They can be in change. Making any statements is too early. And then? I will finish up by being the woman who writes 1000 pages in the end of the life, while only the in the last years the life would be perhaps in distinctive shapes? But the feeling of this moment is still important and you have just ready that. The matter of changing is sometimes so irritating:
Cuba travel- not Cuba travel
Studying sth?- not studying
Amsterdam?- not Amsterdam
Out?- In!

Dwarfs are rassists!!

This is a way to express my envy. Like my 18 children from time to time say „I want it too!“ Then I am thinking why don´t I have the German advents gift calender! They have a row of stars made of cloth on the wall and there have the dwarfs brought 24 gifts- candles, hat, self-made decorations and all you need to make your Christmastime even better. The Germans living here, get, and nothing for me? Have you seen a better example of discrimination (The Universal Declaration of Human Rights Article 2).

I have always known how the best way to change the obsoleted ways of living and thinking is in the kindergarten. But how this is put into practice, was unknown for me. Bit by bit I have become to notice that in my workplace. The way how the children are taught to say the kids that bully them or show in other ways their aggressive nature how this behavior is not appropriate here and they do not like it. This education is missing from quite many people whose kindergarten years are in the past and lead successfully a honourable company.

The equality is another theme that I have to think about in my work. The fact that every child must be equal and they all have the same rights, is connected with each assignment. The children must have all the equally big gifts, all be on the photos equal times and so on.

Giftideas??

What is EVS? The wonder of this projekt, in which i am myself makes me even more help others. It makes you the biggest gift that you could every hope. When the biggest and best excuse is removed why not to notice or help, (connection with the occupation time and Buchenwald) and you have quite much time on your hands you just see the problems you yourself and others have. So who needs a giftidea? The best for you, the world and the reciever is time. I cannot go on without remarking that my favourite seminar maker told that he does not have a clock, he has time:)

The other giftidea ist actually the work of my two months and with that also you can give the people you love, time. Time to do good and to live happily, helping yourself and the others. The Calendar is a good mood calendar, which looks just fabulous. It will be published the next week:) Then You will be here the first ones who get more information about my big secret:)

What did soncorn as mammacorn- where is popcorn!

Oh. I do not anything to say in my excuse to say. I guess there was to much happening at the same time that I did not have too much time even to reflect. You know that is the feeling in the shop when you see too many little cute things that to some extent are the same and can´t choose. So was it also with my life, it was sometimes too much to talk about and then- I did not speak here openly and honestly about anything. Not able to decide whether to say a few words about the Estonian evening, wintery Germany, cultural differences in my life or the brilliance of my children, drum lessons and capoeira, Clown lessons or Calender project, language jokes or evs experience. Now I do not have to knit with open threads anymore- I have only the end in my hands. I have soon done as much as I can and now I can see how the destiny develops itself. With these threads (read: projects and activities, responsibilities and work) seems to be only two possibilities- they can hang me, they can crone me and help you myself prove. Ho.

Sometimes you just nee to have a little push from a friend or a better overview from the situation to understand what is the most important at the moment. This distancing from yourself and activities is the best way to plan life. I have here only a half time more. So I just need to turn the sandclock upside down and reflect more.

Recommendation: Write all the wishes, dreams, plans you have on little post-its and gather them into one little box.