On the Orange in my hand there is written: Saksa Laine-kirjasulg

I leave this title in Estonian as a good example of the state of confusion, as I have just arrived in Germany from Estonia and having settled again in German everydaylife. When I arrived in my blockhouse, was opening the door downstairs and having noticed that somebody at the same time the door was opening, I said to them at the time of thanking and saying hello, "Tere"- in my thoughts I was still in Estonia.

I woke up today having a feeling that this day is a good new beginning. Of course every day is a new little beginning, but this day especially good. So today was started with yoga and meditation and ended with blogging and hearing German language (more specific "Deutsche Welle" ehk "Saksa laine"). It gives me a sort of comfort feeling and knowledge of development and insurance, that I can concentrate and open my life to new daily routines.

When I would start talking about all the other new routines- minutly be-happy attitude, daily thankfullness(analysis), monthly money calculations, weekly German lessons and walks, fortnightly new habbits like jonglen. So more can I at the moment even think of. All the other acticities I do for myself, I guess would be for that to make sure I keep those mentioned. And what to think of this bunch of ideas? That to make sure the ideas that are shared, are kept and remembered. Having maken sure for myself, that having already a system, can everyone in this plan many many spontan ideas add. And if after this letter I really manage to write every day here, would be a creat achivement and a basis for all other ideas.

I love fascination, questions and paralels. It make life go in the right way. Or lets us think that lifes goes in the right way. I was sharing time with my cousin´s daughters and one dialog, what I loved:
- "Why do the little ones always cry and scream?"
- "The always have a reason, and it is a very big one, for them.And even when it is something of a reason like "the oranges are orange" they still have it."

The sequens of similar occasions in life are fascinating. The parallels, similarities that can be drawn from day to day. That is the only reason why I want to grow old. The fact how I could think out (like one of the persons I admire) why I have I had such friends like I have had and why have i had similar problems that repeat form time to time, why have I had certain illnesses.
Now about the oranges. One of my favourite books was "Organge girl" for a while only because of the first picture. Now just because I remembered how good it was, suddenly having seen it in the hands of one friend of mine. I liked the fact that somebody having a hard time would buy a basket of oranges. I love one frined of mine who on our travels would go to simple bars where they have put out oranges to show that they make fresh juice, would buy there one. Even more I love thouse baarkeepers who would give this girl the orange for free and say something nice. The theapic procedure of peeling an orange and the nice smile of my friend who has seen, that I have a given her a orange in the hand that has a smile.

The questions of the day: what makes me fascinated, would I like to grow old, what there was a one day cap- no tomorrow, but all the 364 days after it.

I had an idea...What to do anyway with good ideas?

Sometimes just something pops up in my mind like a bubble, which aims to reach the sky and then the stars. I just had one of those moments. It can be easily defined as reaching somewhere and at the same time nowhere.

I will now just come down to business...I thought a new game. So the name of the game is "Alles"- in German "all", in Estonian "I have still got it". And these two translations to my two other langage are quite enough to expain the main idea. But it is a shouting and jumping game. So one person (me) says for example lamppost"tänavapost" and the others have to do what they ever could do with this rotes and play tarzan?- climbing of top of it? haning your clothes to dry them? put between them the . It shows how multifunctional all things are, and people too. so I could also call "Lausane-Lusianne-Marie" and then everybudy fantasises what she is useful for. Hugging?

Maybe it would be good to say at last in the final passage what i ment in the beginning? Well, perhaps. When a new idea come to you it is a good feeling. Some thoughts have finalised in an idea. But the thing with those ideas is that there is not any use of them if nobody uses them. In that way it is getting nowhere in particular. It is a sense of achievement, but it is just for a second and another moment it is gone. and the moment that you yourself are not satisfied with it, anyone else cannot be expected to burn for this idea also. I quess that is why it is important to share good an new ideas because otherwise nothing will happen with them- they will be left in the air. The best, but the hardest way to deal with the idea is to imply it instantly somewhere. I quess that is why my friends may sometimes get these wierd calls. Hey, I had this wierd idea, do you feel like doing something a bit stupid... But otherwise it is just like I have this good idea lying on my hand and I really do not have anything to do with this, at place for regretting that you afterall had it. No, I doubt, but still then it is the moral that do sth with the good ideas. There is a reason why you have come up with this I quess.